Finding a New You!

After divorce, something that every woman (at least that I have met) struggles with are the phases that you go through.  You doubt yourself, your worth, you lose track of who you are or who you are going to be.  Are you the same person?  There is absolutely no one in this life that maintains the same exact person that they are in life.  Things happen.  People change.  It sounds trite, but it is oh so true.  I think the main thing that we MUST focus on as mothers and women and people in general is that the pain and hurt that we go through does not make us bitter, hateful people.  We have a choice to make every single day.  We can choose to live in the past and hold on...hear those negative voices that tell us we are not worthy, that we must hold our head down in shame over our past, or that we are responsible for the happiness of those around us, or we can choose to make a new life and a new version of ourselves.  I have recently realized that the past was holding me down like a 1,000 pound weight.  I carried the losses with me and let the past make me jaded and the guilt I felt over things I could have done better make me feel like less of a person.  I let this happen to the point that even going to a church was near impossible.  I was raised "right"...you know?  How could I have messed up my life so much?  Well...after much realizing and thinking, I realized that all you can do is hold your head high, find the best version of you, learn from your mistake and always strive to do better.  The last part of that is reaching out and knowing that you are not alone!  I'm not only finding a new me, I'm creating her...I'm creating the person the God wants me to be and my family needs me to be.  As I embark on the journey that is the next chapter in my life, I am choosing courage, commitment and joy.  I am choosing to be positive and open and find a way to use what I have been through to help others not have to go down that road, and if they find themselves in the same position, maybe, just maybe, they can see a ray of hope.  There's always tomorrow.  There's always another chance.  And if you reach out beyond yourself with courage, you will find that you are not alone.  Create the you that you can be proud of and love.  Most importantly, create the you that GOD knows you can be!  There's no greater joy in life than knowing you are living a Godly, rewarding, full life.  Make the choice.  Put the old, defeated, sad, regretful you in the past and take the step to find a new you!  I'm here for you!  We're all making that choice every day.  <3

 5 Things Blessing my life!  (I almost forgot!)

1. New found hope.  I am getting married again in almost exactly a month and this fills my life with joy! I'm so blessed to have my Michael.
2. TurboFire.  Yes. A workout.  Working out gives me not only strength, but peace of mind and a calm.
3. Watching my children grow in the Lord.  We're reading Max Lucado's "The Story" every night right now.  It's a blessing!
4.  The fact that I am gaining the 2 most awesome kids I have met (other than my own) as step-children.
5.  My parents.  They are my heart and my lifesavers. I could not have made it through this last year without them!